If I Could Simply Be Human

Inspired

I just got really inspired by this man, Nick Vujicic, the man without limbs. I saw him earlier on TV. He was on an interview with one newscaster and his last few words struck in my heart. I cried. After hearing his words I realized that I’m so lucky to have this life I’m living. I would like to thank him personally for lifting up my spirit.

Let me share it to you. I can’t quote his words exactly but here’s the thought.

“If you think you’re empty, devastated, defeated, or destroyed — it only takes one person who needs tell you that you are amazing and beautiful in your own unique way. And everything will change.

Just continue to face the challenges of everyday life. Accept the things you cannot change and be thankful for what you have right now. If you’re losing faith, just remember my smile and my words. I’m always here for you.”

My 2012 in a Nutshell

I am very happy that 2012 is over. I had lots of stories for this year but I can summarize my year-round experience by focusing on this phrase — “there is a choice”.
Why? Because this is the first time I have realized, in many ways, that I can create my life by making the right choice.

Yes, decision making is the steering wheel of life. In all the simple things, to the most complicated and major issues in life, your own personal decision is the most important. Because choices are always given. You just have to pick the one that will lead you to happiness. Maybe you don’t understand it right now. Maybe you think that you never had a choice. Or maybe there was a choice but you didn’t like both. I was like that at first. But through my own experiences, I have learned that if I trust my own decision, the result will be contentment. (Note: I don’t need you to compare your experiences with mine, because people have different journeys in life. For me, all of them are just unique and essential)

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It has been years since my dad left us. But in this year was the strangest thing that happened between me and him, I’ve completely stopped communicating with him. It was when my mother married my stepfather, Joe. My dad don’t know it until after one month when he saw the wedding pictures in a social network website called facebook. And it was also the first time that I had to talk to him about his responsibility on me. We exchanged lengthy e-mails, all about financial support and how our father and son relationship would survive. But at that moment, he rejected me. He acted not like a real father but a stranger. So I had to decide, and I’ve decided to stop talking to him anymore, as if he never had a son.

Right now, I believe that I am a much better person for making that choice and I feel more contented as to what I have. I feel more complete, and my dreams were never destroyed. Making that decision is the right choice, at least for now.

If someday he would come back to us to apologize for what he did and show that he will change himself for us, then I’m sure I’ll accept him. But I don’t see it will happen soon.

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I’m glad I’m going to start a new year with a smile. And I’m looking forward to see a lot of changes in my life. As I’ve told you earlier, I earn contentment in making the right decision. Maybe my decision is not the best for everyone but I’ve always made myself happy if I went with my personal choice.

So right now, are you going to take control of the steering wheel and make the right decisions too?

Words Stuck In My Throat

It’s sad to know that not every person has the capacity to understand each other. We are given the talent for speaking and listening, but not all of us have the capability to speak with sense and listen with conviction. Most of the time, I see more people that are selfish, people who enjoy what they have but don’t share it with others, people who are self-centered — they consider their own opinions alone and never listen. The worst among all of them are those who never let their mind open for new things, and they were imprisoned by their wrong beliefs. They thought they knew everything. It’s hard to change that.

We’re given a lot of resources to communicate but we still lack the true meaning of communication — opening our minds to the feelings of the others. Social networks are making people anti-social, real communication between parents and their children are lost, the youth are misunderstood, and the elderly are ignored.

I’m contemplating on what’s going on and I think it’s time for a change. I was the one who always listen whenever there is a conversation. Maybe I’m the one who seldom speak. But from now on, I will write about my thoughts. I am now willing to express myself more in my writings. Through my words you’ll understand me deeper, and I’ll bring you inside my mind to see my rawest form. I will open my mind to criticisms and doubts. It’s a tough challenge but maybe if I started this, I can contribute to the world — or at least, to the people around me.

One thing I ask myself, am I a good writer? Can I influence you with my writings?
I don’t know.
I wish I could.