I am very happy that 2012 is over. I had lots of stories for this year but I can summarize my year-round experience by focusing on this phrase — “there is a choice”.
Why? Because this is the first time I have realized, in many ways, that I can create my life by making the right choice.
Yes, decision making is the steering wheel of life. In all the simple things, to the most complicated and major issues in life, your own personal decision is the most important. Because choices are always given. You just have to pick the one that will lead you to happiness. Maybe you don’t understand it right now. Maybe you think that you never had a choice. Or maybe there was a choice but you didn’t like both. I was like that at first. But through my own experiences, I have learned that if I trust my own decision, the result will be contentment. (Note: I don’t need you to compare your experiences with mine, because people have different journeys in life. For me, all of them are just unique and essential)
It has been years since my dad left us. But in this year was the strangest thing that happened between me and him, I’ve completely stopped communicating with him. It was when my mother married my stepfather, Joe. My dad don’t know it until after one month when he saw the wedding pictures in a social network website called facebook. And it was also the first time that I had to talk to him about his responsibility on me. We exchanged lengthy e-mails, all about financial support and how our father and son relationship would survive. But at that moment, he rejected me. He acted not like a real father but a stranger. So I had to decide, and I’ve decided to stop talking to him anymore, as if he never had a son.
Right now, I believe that I am a much better person for making that choice and I feel more contented as to what I have. I feel more complete, and my dreams were never destroyed. Making that decision is the right choice, at least for now.
If someday he would come back to us to apologize for what he did and show that he will change himself for us, then I’m sure I’ll accept him. But I don’t see it will happen soon.
I’m glad I’m going to start a new year with a smile. And I’m looking forward to see a lot of changes in my life. As I’ve told you earlier, I earn contentment in making the right decision. Maybe my decision is not the best for everyone but I’ve always made myself happy if I went with my personal choice.
So right now, are you going to take control of the steering wheel and make the right decisions too?